Life's tough!!!!!

There are somethings in life..on which no matter how much you ponder..you never get answers..Like..I could never understand why my family & friends think I'm naughty..coz the truth is..I'm not at all naughty..yeah,maybe a little destructive..n a little clumsy..but that's it..I'm NOT naughty!

I mean..What is this...If something breaks at home,my parents think it's me..If appliances start acting weird,they think I'm behind it...If phone bills skyrocket,they think it's me..If something's wrong with the computer,My bro thinks it's me..n If there's noise in the lobby at 3'oclock in the night,they won't think that a burglar might have broken in,they'll call out my name..:

& my friends?They get blank calls,they think it's me..(JS&VJ!)They start getting weird messages from a friend,they think it's my brain behind them(Vj again!)They start getting love ecards by the names of the classmates they hate,they think it's me!(HS!rmbr pulasto?)They won't give me their gf's numbers coz they think I'll call them & tell them about their previous affairs(BK!)They wont tell me about their crushes coz they think I'll kill them,teasing them!!& If I pay them a surprise visit & call them to meet me,they think I'm playing a prank & dont show up!!!(Vj,VA,Mr,KS,US!)

Now,isn't That heights!!!I mean,come on guys,give me a break!!

Yeah,fine..I blew up the Inverter 3 times,but that was by mistake!How Am i supposed to know we shouldnt use Iron,cooler & heater on Inverter???

Yeah..okay..We got a phone bill worth 7000 bucks for 2 months once,but I swear I didnt do anything!!How am I supposed to know that Reliance has 30 Rs. per hour as their Internet charges??And anyway..Do you expect me to be using Net thaaaaaaaaaaat much???Come on!!!!

& well..yeah..I'm awake at 3 at times,but I dont disturb anyone's sleep knowingly..Infact,I don't switch on the lights purposely,so as to not to disturb anyone..Now when it's so dark,I accidentally collide with things & they fall!!& very very accidentally I step on our dog's feet & he shrieks at the top of his voice!!Now is it my fault???Why does he have to be so black??& why does he have to sleep at the places I walk on?

& blank calls..come on!All I did was to send some 20-30 messages to HS & some 30-40 missed calls to JS from my new number..BIg dEAL!!I never sent messages & crank calls to VJ!!
Okay,I sent some ecards to KG under someone else's name but I had nothing to do with the ones sent to HS!

And that day..I had actually come to malls to meet you guys.Fine..I was lying when I called you to sahara..& When I asked you to come to Dts,I was lying then also..BUt how could you not believe me when I had asked you people to come to metros..??Yeah,okay..I was lying then too..coz all this while I was sitting in the food court near PVR sipping kesar lassi..;)But what If I wasn't lying????& I got you people to talk to my bro to show my honesty & you guys said I asked I threatened some passer by to do that for me!!!Come on guys,how low can you people fall??& all that when we had parked our car just in front of yours!!!Shame on you guys!!!;)

And,as far as teasing is concerned..You tell me VA,Did I ever tease you by the names of all the guys you have ever spoken with in 3rd year????& VJ Did I ever tease you by the names of TM,VA,KS,US,MR,SV,SP,AS???& MR Did I ever ask youwhat's M into M & did I ever mention brown shirt in front of you???

As if all this wasnt enough..My sister says I'm a devil in a buffalo's body..just because I..........D'oh!!!

Sigh...Trust me guys..when you have friends n family like mine..

Life's tough!!!;)

Aaj fir dil pareshan sa hai..

Ajeeb si uljhan mei fansaa hai,
Aaj fir dil mera pareshan sa hai..

Aasmaan ko chhoona chahta hai,
khul kar saans lene ka armaan sa hai..

Apno mei hai,fir bhi kitna akela hai,
Apne hi ghar mei jaise mehmaan sa hai..

jaan ne toh chala hai har kisi ko par,
Khud hi se dekho,anjaan sa hai..

Jaane kaunsi shikayat hai isko,
dhadak kar,kar raha jaise ehsaan sa hai..

Is khamoshi se darr lagne laga hai,
aane wala koi toofan sa hai..

Ho gaya hai tanhaaiyon mei gum,
Aaj fir dil ka jahaan veeran sa hai..

Ajeeb si uljhan mei fansaa hai,
Aaj fir dil mera pareshan sa hai..

For you..My FRIEND..

This is for all my Guardian angels..My lovely friends..
Each n everyone of whom's special..
However,these are only words..;)
n I advise you to not to take them seriously..:P


When despair surrounds you
& you see darkness everywhere,
Don't call for me,
'Coz I'll be already there..

When you are loosing the hope
& tears roll down your cheek,
I'll wipe them off your eyes
& will never let you feel weak..

When the momentum's killing you
& expectations are too high,
Together we'll crush your problems
& bid them Good-bye..

When you need a shoulder to cry on
I will come n lend you mine,
& I'll keep holding your hands
Till everything's fine..

So don't you worry baby
Just give me your hand,
I wont let tides take you away
The way they wipe names off the sand..

I don't know where the time'll take us
Dunno where the life's roads'll bend,
All I know is,for as long as I live
You'll always have in me - A FRIEND!

Of Moon & Me..

Have you ever looked at the moon
on a star studded night?
How it stands apart..
from all the stars shining bright..

When you gaze unfazedly
at the enchanting beauty it owns..
Do you ever look for the tears
behind the charming face it dons..?

When it makes a picture perfect
Dancing with a million stars..
Do you ever wonder if it's just a ploy
to hide its numerous scars..?

While watching this splendid sight
as the night takes its own course
Does it ever strike you that
It too might be living,a life like yours?

When you are standing lonely in a crowd
and you retreat into an invisible zone..
Do you ever give it a thought
that it might be just as alone..?

For there's always a story hidden
behind every happy face..
When like the enigmatic moon above
We all feel.....Out of place!

Zen & The art of motorcycle maintenance-Robert perseig

One look at the name of the book & you feel this book isn't for you.
Introduction..arouses curiosity & you decide to move further.
A hundred pages & you start wondering why are you reading it??
And this is where you get so frustrated & confused,you either leave the book or start skimming through pages both of which shouldn't be done..for,patience is what this book requires more than intellect..

It's told that 121 publishers turned down the book before it got published & it is not difficult to understand why! For,it's not like the conventional bestsellers which is its biggest weakness as well as its biggest strength.It doesn't sink into your head with the first read...in best words,you could say it's very demanding.It demands your full attention,active involvement with the narrator & his perspective and hence your integrated efforts towards thinking & comprehending.

ZMM is about the narrator's amazing yet credible journey on a motorcycle with his 11 year old son & the things he discovers during the experience in the form of nature's beauty,complexity of people & their ideologies,his attempts to discover his own self & save his relationship with himself & his son.

The narration is in the form of short chapters or monodialogues which he calls "Chautauquas" following the same pattern throughout the book-- something about the journey,something about the philosophy & something about technology in the backdrop of maintaining a motorcycle.

And during this journey he has given dimensions to understanding as classical & romantic and further divided classical understanding into the mind & the matter,subject & object.Thus while combining his own beliefs with oriental philosophy & ancient Greek philosophy & Zen,the author takes us into a long discussion about "Quality" while presenting the world as a trinity of mind,matter & Quality.

Distant concepts come up like nihilism, crystallisation, rationality,Zen, dualism,rhetonic,Dialectic et al. And sadly,most of the times author takes it for granted that all these concepts are known to ordinary readers like me.But since they are not,it adds to the confusion & a sense of distance. Such things make philosophy appear like a dish which looks delectable but is difficult to digest..It's very important that you are actually able to understand the gist or essence of the underlying concept otherwise what's the use bragging on about these concepts which to be honest have not much significance to the common man..when he can't make any sense out of them..What's the use looking for a truth which can't be felt,understood & implemented? Anyways..

This is not exactly a work of fiction.so,there's not much scope of characterisation taking the case of Phaedrus as the exception,which is ironically the "heart" of the book.Narrator's treatment has been very objective towards him which is actually understandable.His intensity is intriguing & it's very difficult to see him as a "ghost" or "evil" form.You feel connected to him on his chase of truth & his failure.

There's something really surprising about the language...except the concepts I mentioned earlier,there are hardly any difficult words..You wouldn't be actually using your dictionary much.Pattern is similar as told.. EVEN THEN,it's difficult to understand,for inspite of all this,language isn't lucid..it's rather very much obscure.

Infact narrator himself says it at one point:
" That..That now..That ties it all together.It feels relieving when that happens.It's so hard sometimes to conjure all this up,a strange sort of exhaustion follows."

At the end,this surely is not a book for beginners & even from the voracious readers it demands a lot of effort.
But in any case,there 'is' something you'll learn from the book,what that something is depends completely on you. For philosophy,be it in any form..has different meaning for different individuals..

So,If you are looking for a book that provides you with literary challenge..grab it..but if you are looking for something that will keep you occupied over a weekend..please,stay away!!I won't say it can change the way you think about yourself & life(As the cover projects) but nevertheless,it indeed is one powerful book.Must read for those who dig non-fiction.

Thinking over the title..

Door falak mei chamak raha hai, wo banke raja raat ka...
Kya mujhe mil sakta hai, bas ek tukda chaand ka..?

Chaaro taraf bikhre huye hain, banke guroor aasmaan ka...
Kya mujhe mil sakta hai, ek taara mere naam ka..?

Kab se dhoondna chaah rahi hoon, aks apni pehchaan ka..
Kya mujhe mil sakta hai, mauka khud se mulaakat ka..?

Na kisi cheez ka gham hai mujhe, na asar hai ye pyaar ka..
Kya mujhe mil sakta hai, ek naam is ehsaas ka..?

Jahaan dard ka naam na ho, na koi bhed ho din raat ka..
Kya mujhe mil sakta hai, ek jahaan mere khwaab ka..?

Padhkar ye mat udaane lagna, mazaak mere jazbaat ka..
Bhala kabhi mil sakta hai, matlab har ik baat ka..?? :D :D :D